April 23, 1997
I watch the others lead their normal lives,
With lots of friends and fun.
And sometimes I have to wonder,
If I am the only one.
I feel all alone,
Like no one is there.
Although I know,
There are some who care.
There are some who like me,
But also some who don't.
Some who will be seen with me,
And certainly some who won't.
I wish I was more like everyone else,
My life is seen as a big joke.
I have no best friend to be there for me
Whenever my life goes up in smoke.
I have no one to talk to,
My life holds some sad and lonely years.
I keep all my feelings to myself,
And then I burst out into tears.
Sometimes when I go to sleep,
I just start to cry.
It happens to me so often,
And I just wonder why.
I wonder why I feel the way I do,
I don't understand at all.
I'm walking up a staircase,
And at the end awaits a fall.
A fall that lasts forever,
It will never end.
Unless, of course I find myself
A wonderful, caring friend.
I need a friend to slow my fall,
And bring it to a stop.
To help me climb back up the stairs,
And guide me to the top.
I need a shoulder to cry on,
A shoulder that is always there.
And with that, I need a friend,
A friend who will really care.
I don't know how to end this,
The feeling never goes away.
Every moment of my life,
I almost always feel this way.
Whether it's all true or not,
I really do not know.
There are people who care,
At least I hope and think so.
Although this is an unending thought,
I cannot write forever.
But my thoughts will go on and stay in my head,
And they won't go away, not ever.
© 1998 The National Library of Poetry; "Lonliness" Copyright © Paige Klassen